Open Question: I literally don't feel like I'm enough o.o?

My jealousy sparked very high…

My boyfriend (A) doesn’t tell me that I’m beautiful much anymore. I’ll shower him in nice words, but it’s rare that I’ll get anything back — unless we’re in bed.

Anyway, he went away for college a few weeks ago, and his brother (B) needed the password to his account on the computer so that he can download things to make YouTube videos. Anyway, A gave me the password so that I could download the stuff because B messes up stuff with the computer. When I logged on, his MeetMe, Facebook, YouTube, and etc…were already logged on and the pages already opened. As I was closing things out, I noticed his MeetMe page was logged into his messages. My eye caught him send a message to a different girl in the area and he called her «cute».

Alllllllll the jealousy. I can never get him to say that to me unless we’re in bed. e.e

I vowed that I’d never do this, but I ended up reading other messages. All of him and other girls doing light flirting. Not just other girls, but girls that are triple my size.

Him not mentioning that he has a girlfriend, everrrrr in anyyyyyy of these messages hurts a bit, but…I’m starting to feel like I’m not enough. Literally.

His ex girlfriends were some big women. The girls he was talking to before we started dating, were some big women.

And I’m just sitting here, size four in jeans, my cami is a small, c-cup breasts, and I wear a five in boy’s shoes. I have NOTHING compared to these girls that he’s calling «cute». It’s not fair. XD

I kept this all in for a few days. I feel torn. And I just broke a bit ago. There was a very…creepy older man who was very persistent in trying to get me on a date with him. And I told my boyfriend. I didn’t tell him because there was a creepy old dude all over me, but as a, «you think I’m pretty, right?» I probably worded it wrong.

Me; You always said that I attract strange people. :p I’m just trying to find the creepiness in you — assuming you’re attracted to me. ;p

Him; Hahaha

That destroyed all my strength. So, I told him that I was gonna go to bed. And he kept asking me what was wrong. How in the heck do you tell your boyfriend all that? How do you tell him that you feel as if you’re not physically enough for him, and that you don’t feel pretty to him unless his hormones start going crazy? How?!

Open Question: I literally don't feel like I'm enough o.o?