My x gf and I had an awful break-up, we dated for almost two months and if you must know she was 20 and I am 28, soon to be 29. We had great chemistry, passion for love and most certainly madly in love. Yes it was only two months, but the two of us shared a lot in common, we both wanted that «real» relationship and not some high school fling. She suffers from bipolar and schizophrenia and is not taking any medicine for the two. I will not allow some medical issue come between love, so it did not bother me. I was 110% honest and very loyal to this lady, I had no reason to lie, nor would I have gone behind her back. She was the only person I was ever able to tell my darkest secrets to and that’s because I trusted her with my heart. I was abs olutely head over heels for her, I am not perfect and nor is she, but she’s absolutely perfect for me.She had gotten sick with mono and I told her since I have no medical coverage and work pay’s my bills; I felt that I could not be around her in case I catch mono which is highly contagious and then I’d have to go to a doctor and be off until further notice, I just didn’t want to risk it. She felt like I was breaking up with her and she told me you can’t just breakup with me because I have mono and it can take a long time to get rid of it. She told me I was being selfish and that hurt her, I did not understand why it sounded like that, but after hearing her say it for 30minutes I felt awful and told her ok, I am sorry. We didn’t talk for a few days because I wanted her to get as much rest as she could, so I sent her mother a text and asked if I was able to stop by with flowers that I had gotten for her and maybe have a chance to talk for a bit. She thought it would be a great idea for me to come over. When we talked I told her how sorry I was and I am sure it hurt her because it hurt me, dearly and truly. I told her I want to make it up to her and when she felt like the time was right for her to call I was going to be there, that’s how I left. On my way home I got messages from her, saying how much she loves me and something this little can not pull her away from me and she never wants to go through this again. I asked her if she felt like it was to early to contact me, I felt like she needed the time, but I guess she didn’t take the time to think about, because that week I started feeling like crap at work and went to the urgent care where I found out I had a viral syndrome and vertigo. I called her after I left to explain what happened and that’s when she told me about not being sure about this relationship.. She said she is only 20 and it feels like she’s married and I wasn’t g oing to be supportive for her on the move she wanted to make,which was only an hour away, not a deal breaker for me. the day before I got ill I had spent the entire day with her mother, little sister and her, and we had a great time and I bought lunch for them all.Now we are after the fact, about a week later I decide to go see my brother who passed away 17 years ago and this is when I notice he has no tombstone which put me into a sever state of anger, I was so angry with my mom that she’d let him go that long without anything to acknowledge him. So while I am sitting at his grave she texts me about her clothes and she is coming to pick them up.. I didn’t reply. Her mom sent me a face book message with the same thing, I did not reply. Finally I decide to leave and that’s when she said she is on her way and will be there in 30mins.. I rushed home as fast as I could and bagged her stuff up and put it in the basement. When she pulled into my drive I felt so a ngry that it felt like my demon took form.. I told her to get out of my drive way or I’ll call the cops, she said she just wanted her stuff. I told her I threw it out, I wanted nothing laying around to remind me of her. She looked at me as said «My mom was right, you never loved me» and walked away. That pissed me off something fierce and I stood behind her car because I didn’t want her to leave. shh.. I wanted to talk, but she did not want to, she mumbled more stuff to me and I said some very nasty stuff, I slammed the car door in her face, not hurting her, and I told her to get her bipolar schizophrenic bleep the BLEEP out of my driveway. Since then I have not recovered, she does not know her mom told me that everything she told me was a lie, even her mom can’t believe anything she says. She lied to me about everything, the person she was, the life she had and everything else.
See I can’t help to think if she loved me or not, did she lie about that? What can I do to make this right? Is it possible that this can be fixed? I was going to make a short video with all the pictures we took and all the marking we left at parks and the sport where I fell in love with her. I’ve tried to stop thinking about her, it’s hard as hell.
Open Question: Horrible break-up, is there hope left?
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